I really avoid discussing my battle with depression and suicide... or at least I did. I'm not quite sure my husband takes it seriously, and I think my parents kinda block the concept of me considering it out so violently that it's almost like they're undercutting my state of mind. Avoiding the issue is not helping.
So now that I got that painting out of my system it does help quite a bit, today I actually was able to get a lot of work done 3 new images on
us.fotolia.com/p/202620160 2 validated so far,waiting on the third, and starting on a set of icons in a sketchy calligraphy style. So that's something.
As for future deviant art illustrations, I'm working on a super hero design not quite happy with her, especially when my husband said she looks like angewoman in my first sketch, and in my head if anything she'd look more like if Zero and the platinum haired cutsie water dragoon from legend of dragoon had a sexy baby and she was trained by Ghost.... her origin is making me think I've been corrupted by some of the effed up yaoi out there.